When convicted killer Donald Beaty was executed this week, there was much talk about "justice" and "closure" for the family of his victim.
Those terms make Donna Rossetti-Bailey chuckle. Emotions and fears that returned to the surface with the execution of one of her sister's killers in 1999 helped lead to a nervous breakdown for her.
"That's a word that sounds nice, but that doesn't really happen," said Rossetti-Bailey, whose sister, Suzanne, was brutally raped and murdered in Phoenix in 1981. "After the breakdown, I came out the other side stronger than ever, but there was no closure.
"Sadness. Just sadness, more sadness."
Rossetti's brother, Peter, said: "There's a certain level of satisfaction in knowing that, at least for that one particular individual, he will never do that again, and someone else will not experience that same kind of loss. Is there a sense of overwhelming relief? No, or at least I didn't have it."
Family members - at least, the few who will speak publicly - typically find that an execution brings years of buried pain back into the open, said Jan Upchurch, administrator of the Office of Victims Services of the Arizona Department of Corrections.
And the obvious: The killer's death will not bring their loved one back, making such terms as justice and closure a lot more valuable to prosecutors, politicians and detached observers than those who experienced the horror.
"It's not closure. It's the end of a chapter," Upchurch said. "Losing a family member or friend in a gruesome manner can be traumatic for a lifetime, and some people heal more than others."
In 1991, Arizona voters approved a Victims' Bill of Rights that included such services as counseling. The Office of Victims Service was created five years ago, with one of its major roles serving as advocates for families of violent crime victims from commission to sentencing to execution - and sometimes beyond.
Two OVS representatives were at the side of the family of Christy Ann Fornoff, a Tempe girl raped and killed by Beaty as she collected money for her newspaper route in 1984. Beaty was executed on Wednesday in Florence.
"Both of the ladies were absolutely wonderful," said Christy's mother, Carol Fornoff. "They were with us all day. Just being there. No words of wisdom. The big thing is that they were just there with us to comfort us."
Families usually do not comment to reporters at an execution. Those that do likely have already been very open about the death of their loved one.
The Fornoffs publicly expressed forgiveness for Beaty, opened their eight-bedroom cabin in Pine to parents of other slain children for support retreats and were active in the push to approve the Victims Bill of Rights.
Rossetti-Bailey's vehicle has been a website, suziscircle.com, that provides women with self-defense resources.
"We tried to make chicken salad out of it, as they say, and try to help other women and give them insight on how they can stay safe," Rossetti-Bailey said.
On Jan. 29, 1981, Suzanne Rossetti - who had recently moved to the Valley from Massachusetts - locked herself out of her car in front of a convenience store. Jess James Gillies and Mike Logan helped her get in the vehicle, and to show her appreciation, Rossetti bought them beer and offered a ride to a stable where Gillies worked.
En route, Rossetti was grabbed by the men, raped and taken to the Superstition Mountains, where she was pushed off a cliff and tumbled 40 feet down the hillside. She was then beaten on the head with rocks and left to die.
Logan pled guilty to first-degree murder and received a life sentence. Gillies was executed on Jan. 13, 1999.
"There were times then where I would have loved to be alone with the individual to, I don't know, settle the score, I guess," Peter Rossetti said.
The killing was detailed in a book, "Evil Intentions: The Story of How an Act of Kindness Led to Senseless Murder." Rossetti-Bailey said that she has never been able to pick it up.
The Rossetti family did not witness the execution. Her siblings live near Boston.
Before Beaty was executed, he apologized to the Fornoff family members in attendance.
"It meant a lot for him to do that," Carol Fornoff said. "The last few days have been tiring, emotional, exhausting. We're drained. But we're relieved and at peace."
Upchurch said that her office's services are typically still needed after an execution.
"We'll continue to follow up with the family, depending on their needs," Upchurch said. "The execution is over, but their loved one is still gone. It can be a double-edged sword, so to speak."